All I Wanted Was To Love You Better

The holidays take it outta me.

They always do. It’s a soul-sucking blur of deadlines, expectations, travel, noise, and spending money you don’t have on things you’re not sure matter. Everyone rushes to finish the year strong, whatever that even means. I get caught in it too. But what saves me—every damn time—is the cold air and winter wind. That first real breath you take when the madness quiets down. That’s when I finally have a minute to breathe. And this time, that breath came wrapped in the sound of TV on the Radio’s latest album.

SEEDS has been on repeat for me—this is my third listen today alone. I’ve followed these cats since their debut, and they’ve never missed. Every album leaves me feeling weightless. I float. Like a cloud pushed forward by something invisible and gentle. I move, but there’s no pressure. No suffocation. No congestion. That’s everything the holidays aren’t. They clog your brain and drain your spirit. SEEDS clears all that out like smoke through an open window.

TV on the Radio makes music that feels like a heartbeat. Constant. Reassuring. Rhythmic. There’s something holy in how grounded and alive it makes me feel. Like the holidays should make us feel—connected, still, present. The kind of quiet joy we talk about but rarely reach. The kind that doesn’t come from sale racks or family tension, but from warmth, love, and letting yourself feel something honest. SEEDS cracks the shell of this season open and lets something real crawl out.

If you’ve been feeling overwhelmed, cornered, exhausted by the expectations this time of year dumps on us—this is your reprieve. This is your reset. Go listen to SEEDS. Let it fill your chest with something bigger than obligation. Let it tempt you back into feeling human again.

Because that’s the kind of temptation worth giving into.